Day 1 - Suhur

The thing I've always not liked about waking up for Suhur, is the fact that it feels like my mom barges in to wake me up just when I've closed my eyes to get to sleep.

I'm a bit of an insomniac.

Of course, Dad gets to sleep in a little bit longer, simply because he gets up without lounging around a few minutes longer, only eats a little and then gets ready to make the morning prayers.

My eight-year-old brother didn't have to get up at all, but when he was told he could sleep, he actually got up and ran downstairs to eat. I guess it's the feeling of being a grown-up and allowed to fast, even though it's for half a day. Most of his friends will probably be fasting a whole day, but my parents believe that fasting at such an early age isn't good for the bone structure.

I wasn't allowed to fast until I was fourteen, officially. Unofficially, I fasted before then with my mother's help - and pretended that I wasn't when my dad was looking.

At this time in the morning, I can never force myself to eat too much - which I totally beat myself up for later when I'm starving. Today, we had leftover stir-fried rice, lettuce leaves (because my parents believe you should have something raw with every meal) and watermelon. It's important to get a lot of water into your system, especially now that it's in the summer.

Right now, I'm not even thinking about the hunger. All I want to do is pray and lay back down to get some shut-eye before someone comes in and jostles me awake for the day's activities. ><

Oh. Right. I meant to add my Ramadan resolutions here, so I'll do that before I have to log off:

a. Control my temper - especially when it comes to my parents. That is easier said than done, but worth a try.

b. Tolerate my brother. At least until sundown.

c. Try to focus more on God and be a better person. That means changing my distracting Ian avi. *sobs*

d. Try not to waste my time. This was actually more of my mother's suggestion, because in her opinion I am always wasting time. Well.

e. If I have to go to the city today, don't argue with my cousins. Especially Mr. Nerdy "I'm So Cool" Fourteen-Year-Old Cousin. Eww.

So yes, I believe that is all for now. I'm sorry if none of this makes sense. I'm really sleepy